my heart grieves, she is so selfish
i don’t know how to start. i just want to pour things out.
am having my "pain attacks" again. this had made me uncomfortable these past few days. my scoliosis is not getting better. i have no idea why.
the pain reaches my right leg. i haven’t consulted a doctor. i need to the soonest.
am still having my 8hr government job. i have embraced the reality that this is where i get my money to support myself and my son in a way. i have learned to love the am not used to "system". working in the private sector is really different. you are more exposed to "more professional" people. but am still grateful to God for He knows what is best for me.
may be He allowed me to have this present work for me to be humble, to be more patient and to forgive each time somebody causes me pain.
i am writing because i just learned that there are really "very selfish" persons around. my pain attack is there, i am not comfortable, i asked a favor, i want to borrow a chair, a plastic chair that i believe could help ease the pain. ease the pain in a way that it has a good support for my back. it would simply be a replacement/in exchange for the office chair that i am currently using.
i am sad. my colleague dint allow me to use the chair that she only uses as a "chair for her bags". i don’t think it matters because in the first place, i am only going to exchange the chair that i am using with the chair that she is using for her bags. i don’t get her point. she even said that why only now i am experiencing pain that it had been for long that i am using my current chair? if only i know why.
if only i am still in the private sector and still can decide on things, i have long terminated her.
but i believe God wouldn’t be please with my action. reason really why i am here. i pray to God that He will always protect and guard my heart and i thank Him for the mercy each time i go wrong.
May 19th, 2008 at 9:02 pm
you are right in saying that there are people in our surroundings who are selfish, rubber face pa. a chair for a bag than a person to sit on it is kinda stupid. sometimes people are blinded with greediness rather than look at the merit of what other people needs. You know Au, I am grateful that God has shielded me from these persons. Desiderata always reminded me to avoid “loud and greedy individuals because they are of the devil”. Hala ka better be careful baka may maligno na dyan.
May 20th, 2008 at 12:46 am
hehe. thank u ma’am prix. love u..
May 20th, 2008 at 2:25 am
my sympathy au… it’s just a chair, but letting somebody borrow it, means we “care.”
let our love for God thru Jesus Christ expand our hearts to contain the pain.
take care and God Bless!
May 20th, 2008 at 3:34 am
hello,au! im sorry to hear that..sobra naman para plastic chair lang di pa maibigay..sige lang, be patient and be forgiving God will bless you all the more. i miss you, im sorry i have been very busy and was not able to keep in touch.please take good care of yourself lagi.
May 21st, 2008 at 8:15 pm
sige lang ga, kanang imong officemate kamukha na sa iyang plastic chair. remember what goes around comes around. kanang iyang ka selfish mobalik na sa iya 7×7 pa. luv u, God bless…